Well, it is today Day 5 of my first cycle of chemo. Life is settling into a routine - get up in the morning, go for a brisk walk, have a high, high, high fibre breakfast then try to do a poop - shower and the day begins at 1pm!
Not bad, except the late start means a late end. I work on the computer at night and keep going, hence the late start. Must try to reset my hours to something more normal.
Today, I got a very nice text message from a breast cancer survivor - this is what it said: The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face to you and give you peace; he is your strength.
These little vignettes make each day easier, and lighter. I thank the Lord for people such as these who are so willing to spare some of their time for a stranger.
Sometimes, it is those from you you expect nothing who give the most. This is something I have learnt - with the initial diagnosis, everyone flocks around. But with the wearing on of time, it appears that it is the fellow cancer sufferers and survivors who will rally - perhaps they know what it is like.
The sad part is that I am not more than mildly disappointed in the rest - perhaps it says something about the quality of my life and my own relationships that I need to review and change. Perhaps it is only with crisis that people act - when you are not appearing to be going through a rough time, people think - 'oh, she's ok, we don't need to bother too much right now.'
But it is appropriate now to reassess. The question now is - with what time I may have left, who do I want to include? Who is important? What do I need to do to be able to stand and attest to a life that was well-lived - and sometimes it is the people who want to be a part of that life that is testimony.
Not bad, except the late start means a late end. I work on the computer at night and keep going, hence the late start. Must try to reset my hours to something more normal.
Today, I got a very nice text message from a breast cancer survivor - this is what it said: The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face to you and give you peace; he is your strength.
These little vignettes make each day easier, and lighter. I thank the Lord for people such as these who are so willing to spare some of their time for a stranger.
Sometimes, it is those from you you expect nothing who give the most. This is something I have learnt - with the initial diagnosis, everyone flocks around. But with the wearing on of time, it appears that it is the fellow cancer sufferers and survivors who will rally - perhaps they know what it is like.
The sad part is that I am not more than mildly disappointed in the rest - perhaps it says something about the quality of my life and my own relationships that I need to review and change. Perhaps it is only with crisis that people act - when you are not appearing to be going through a rough time, people think - 'oh, she's ok, we don't need to bother too much right now.'
But it is appropriate now to reassess. The question now is - with what time I may have left, who do I want to include? Who is important? What do I need to do to be able to stand and attest to a life that was well-lived - and sometimes it is the people who want to be a part of that life that is testimony.
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